Bad blogger, sad Mum

[February]

And by sad Mum I don't mean you Mum, I mean me. I am still having issues with my Lightroom catalog, but that's probably not why I haven't posted since February. Life. Maybe it's because my Mum always told me "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". I don't want to have a big whinge (though I could have a cry) but I don't want to pretend everything is sunshine and roses when the truth of it is that I feel like I've been losing my grip on the kids, the house, everything, and the tears are right there just behind the surface.

The good news is that the school holidays officially started at pick up this afternoon, and I will have from Tuesday till Sunday to catch my breath and gather myself while my children spend time with two sets of Grandparents and a pair of Aunts.

I will be fine, and things will get better. At least I'm helping the other Mum's around here feel like they are winning at parenting by comparison! I sincerely hope you are feeling like you're doing a better job than I am at the moment. And I will take solace from the late 80's and Yazz The Only Way is Up.....

Mx

I wonder where the balance is with blogging crappy feelings? I feel like this could be a very unsatisfying post to read where I kinda say I'm not travelling well but don't give any details. On the other hand, I don't want to bang on about feeling like I'm doing a shitty job. I love my children dearly but I was so appalled by one of them and their behaviour today that I think it's the first time that I didn't also like them. Thoughts that I've been too much of a walk over and wanted them to express their feelings but has that led to a complete disregard for the feelings of others? I read a quote this week "A lack of boundaries leads to a lack of respect". I think we have a problem and I need to grow a mother's backbone, for my sake and the kids.